Authentic

Thank you to those reading, and offering prayers. Oh - you have no idea how much it helps. Look at the miracles coming our way (see below posts)?!! WOW!

I wanted to say, I want to be as real as is respectful to my family and my marriage, since this is a public blog. As much as I can be, I DO want to be real and authentic with my feelings. Even with my strong faith, my love of marriage, and my belief in marriage vows, the solace that faith gives me, and knowing God has me and my family in His hands, there is still much to process, feel, and say. It is like spiritually, my trust in God is stronger than ever, but my place in this fallen world and its responsibilities are pulling me into an epic battle. My life has become dual: spiritual life - strong, worldly life - struggling.

I cling to Christ as REDEEMER. He who redeems fallen things. Bad things happen in this world because it fell. Christ continues to redeem what happens in this life. It will only be truly good in the next life. But here on earth, this situation will be redeemed. I am excited to blog what I pray and believe will be a success story. Life in a faithful marriage isn't always rosy, tea parties, and date nights.

I wonder if we writers share enough of the true struggles we face in our families and marriages? It isn't pretty to do so, easy, or pleasant. It can open one up to a lot of judgement too. Yes, we ARE blessed, but it takes work, pain, and tears to manage those blessings. Failure too.

The journey after a fall is a slow one. There will be MANY more stumbles, weak moments, vanity, and pride to overcome. Thank you for letting me raw and authentic here, as well as hopeful and faithful. I am a woman of two sides, and this blog can not always be a field with you on the other side of the fence thinking my grass is always greener. Mine is pretty rutted and weed choked at present.

Better seasons of green are coming. I just have to work my way there. First I have to break my back plowing before there is ever hope of a harvest.

Thanks for your amazing prayers and joining me on the journey!