I'm under the weather and headed to the doctor (sound familiar from last Thurs?) so this will be fast. I actually feel like a bit of a failure - not because I'm sick (not my control) but because of chaos in the wake of it. I've had to cancel/reschedule piano lessons (to the point the teacher questioned our dedication this week because between me or Lovely being sick, we've had to reschedule twice and she asked if we even wanted to continue. That hurt me), not perform on Tuesday (Hubby filled in for me and played), and had to cancel a tutoring session for illness before we could establish sessions pre Spring Break. The mom was not pleased, so I feel I've let down a bunch of people this week :( I let their tone or words affect my emotions. I have to learn I can't be everything to everyone everytime.....
**UPDATED to add my doc appt went GREAT. I felt much better as the morning went on, and got the ALL CLEAR from the doc. Pneumonia is gone, as is the stomach virus. Hopefully from here on out, we'll have some good health!!! Blood tests come back tomorrow.***
1. I've managed to smile at something this week. That's an accomplishment.
2. I managed to still care for the baby - for example - nursing. Even when wiped out and exhausted. She stayed happy. I'll take it!
3. Monday before all this happened, the whole family went to a very peaceful, and reflective penance service at church. There was no speaking, just music and reconciliation. The music in the background (a man playing a Dulcimer - go ahead, play this link while you read this entry) was simply breathtaking and the kids were captivated (Lovely especially, she got as close as she could to the Dulcimer player) and it was a time of peace, quiet breathing, quiet prayer, and reconciliation. It was so wonderful to go as a family, feel a weight lifted, and Lovely enjoyed some time with Jesus too! She says they are buddies, hehe.
**UPDATED to add my doc appt went GREAT. I felt much better as the morning went on, and got the ALL CLEAR from the doc. Pneumonia is gone, as is the stomach virus. Hopefully from here on out, we'll have some good health!!! Blood tests come back tomorrow.***
1. I've managed to smile at something this week. That's an accomplishment.
2. I managed to still care for the baby - for example - nursing. Even when wiped out and exhausted. She stayed happy. I'll take it!
3. Monday before all this happened, the whole family went to a very peaceful, and reflective penance service at church. There was no speaking, just music and reconciliation. The music in the background (a man playing a Dulcimer - go ahead, play this link while you read this entry) was simply breathtaking and the kids were captivated (Lovely especially, she got as close as she could to the Dulcimer player) and it was a time of peace, quiet breathing, quiet prayer, and reconciliation. It was so wonderful to go as a family, feel a weight lifted, and Lovely enjoyed some time with Jesus too! She says they are buddies, hehe.
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THANKFUL THURSDAY
THANKFUL THURSDAY
1. For Hubby - dealing with this crazy week and helping out.
2. For my friends who have reached out to me this week.
3. For my kids staying healthy this week (please stay well!!).
4. For Spring Break approaching - sleeping in every day, visiting my sister and staying at her home, time for family, lazy days!
2. For my friends who have reached out to me this week.
3. For my kids staying healthy this week (please stay well!!).
4. For Spring Break approaching - sleeping in every day, visiting my sister and staying at her home, time for family, lazy days!
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It's hard to see the positive when things don't seem to be going well & sickness creeps in. We had to cancel my son's birthday party & several other things in Nov. when our family was sick. That's very tough for an 8 yr. old! I'm glad you were able to find some successes this week. Hope you're feeling better soon! God bless you!
ReplyDeleteI know it can be so hard when you are sick- no sick days built into this job! Bless you for keeping the most important thing the most important thing... keeping the babies happy and the Lord in the loop! Great job.
ReplyDeleteGod bless you as you struggle with sickness!! Smiling in the midst of suffering is no small success!
ReplyDeleteMay God grant you healing...and soon!
Ha, sometimes I think sickness is the best way for our Father to remind us mommies that we can't do and be everything to everyone! And how great that the baby still got nursed! I have so many weeks like that:).
ReplyDeleteYou have a beautiful family!
ReplyDeleteI am so glad your docter's appointment went well.
The penance service sounds lovely.
Thanks so much for stopping by my blog, and the wonderful comment! I have received so many lovely e-mails, etc. about my returning to the Church. It just warms my heart and brings joyful tears to my eyes.
Blessings,
~Kathy
Well, to all who were impressed I nursed the baby....I couldn't have managed that if my wonderful friend/neighbor had not taken Lovely for a playdate....she deserves the credit for giving me one ounce of energy for my 9 month old! And yes, I do think He uses his sense of humor to remind us how childlike we all are :) lol VERY humbling!
ReplyDeleteOh - to correct that....He doesn't cause illness or strife, I just mean the "growth" I get from it I think is part of the "humor" (hey, I bet God gets sarcasm lol). I have to laugh about it, or one just cries....it is humbling having to ask for or receive help, even knowing that others WANT to and love helping in some way. I know because I love helping.
ReplyDeleteTo question your dedication seems a bit much, perhaps she's overly sensitive or insecure?
ReplyDeleteAs for the tutoring, the mother did understand that you were contagious, right? Sure, her child's education is important to her but if she can't be understanding, well, I'd hate to see you stress out about her treatment of you. You go above and beyond for everyone and deserve to be treated kindly.
Hey Sarah - I think with the piano teacher it is a cultural thing. Being punctual, consistent, etc. Even though she is GREAT with little kids, and patient, I think part of her expects the perfect attendance as a sign of talent as well. I'm going to call her tomorrow and let her know we're better and when she's ready (she takes next week off) we're ready, but warn her we get sick easily. As for the mom, I think there are some issues there I should not have been surprised about. Plus, I'm a sensitive soul....but I still trust my instincts at their tone, etc. I can tell you, after a nap and a good checkup today - I felt better, my wall came down some, and their words are not hurting me. And, you my friend, are far too kind with your last sentiment. I'm just surrounded by lovely people who make it easy to give :)
ReplyDeleteYou have a beutiful family! I hope you are feeling better today.
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