because it was not clear enough:
A) Thank you for so many of the private emails checking on me. I appreciate it so much! Thank you all for the comments too!
B) I definitely am battling moderate/situational depression. I forgot to be more clear on a blog, when people who see me daily already know these things. I'm on medication, and getting therapy. I'm really only down when IN our current residence. When I am out and about, I am free and happy. I'm hoping a better residence can become "home" and I'll be less depressed - but I have no idea. So, I have to do the work too, to overcome it. But of course I've been depressed since September. I also have battled PPD too. When at home, I'm weighed down, and battle those hopeless feelings. That's why getting out is so important. But I wanted to share just how weighed down I feel when at home and why naps can tempt me as an escape.
C) I just want to post the good, the bad, and the ugly of this journey - especially if it helps anyone else. So often, we only blog the good in our lives - and I want to document all I am feeling and dealing with as I process this huge life change. I'm sorry for not being more clear....but I'm ever so glad at the comments and personal emails of concern. I feel so much less alone!!! I love you dear friends.
D) A few people worried about me feeling judged by them sharing their concern for me. I'm touched!! NO judgement felt! Please post things below - especially when they can help others! Rebuilding a family, finances, and a marriage is overwhelming. I need my village, and I hope I can create a village too. I moderate all comments, so if I am wary of a comment you want to post, I won't post it. I just want this blog to be a place I can really process, and perhaps, help another reader if they need it. I've gotten so many wonderful perspectives privately today. I thank you all!
Thanks for letting me honest, and thanks for also caring about me beyond this blog page. I have so much to pay forward.
Much appreciation, love, and prayers.
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I realize this is a minor point but your comment about only being depressed inside your residence made me wonder.... have you had your home blessed since you moved into it? I'm not necessarily saying that your depression is because of the devil directly, but maybe it would help?
ReplyDeleteI do know what you mean though about a home depressing you, especially if you don't own it so you can't/don't want to improve it much. Hang in there. It isn't just you.