Sorry to be Vague

Hey Friends,

When did my blog stop capturing my life, and become more about me trying to capture life? It is such a chore these days to decide to find joy, live positively (especially for the children looking to me) , laugh, and focus on my needed daily tasks without being reminded about the tightness in my chest. But, I am choosing joy, and I can feel the blessings of living "the glass is half full" life.

We're still waiting. Waiting for news on our big "thanksgiving". It's a nail biter, and I have to say - losing my home last year almost was worse. I really, oddly, think it was worse. Let me explain.

Last year, when we lost our house and Hubby got terribly ill, I could see blessings from God left and right. He doesn't allow things to happen, He is WITH YOU as they happen. I truly know this, and have experienced this. Our world is flawed. This time, during this season, I have NO doubt He has with me, I just seem too stressed to see His works of love and mercy as constantly as I did. Thankfully, I see it in obvious bursts, and feel it when I calm my heart in prayer. Today was one of those days, and I'm headed to bed with a soothed heart. I pray I wake up with one as that is not always the case. I also pray I sleep all night too. So, because of the distraction of this particular stress, I'm standing in my own way of seeing the constant signs from God He is with me at EVERY turn - so this trial feels worse. Maybe also because we are nearing the 1st Anniversary of "the terrible awful"  (what is that from? It is totally on the tip of my tongue!!) we were SO close to rebuilding. Now, that is in question. Maybe that is it?

But, I close this in thanksgiving for your prayers, your generous hearts in letting my blog go in this direction, for uplifting me, and for you just being you. I've been able to now meet TWO of you readers by chance or by plan - and how COOL is that?

God is good ALL the time. Are we just good enough to see it?

LOVE!!